HEY YALL......
Hope everyone is doing well. To be honest I have been lazy. I'm suppose to be studying for the lsat, losing weight/eating healthy, & starting a nonprofit BUT I have not been motivated. I was thinking maybe I don't want to walk in my assignment, I just want to work a 9-5 and come home and go to sleep. Who am I kidding this 9-5 is not for me. I want to travel and be freeeee. Okay so starting today June 4, 2015 I'm back at it. I'm not holding myself back and neither should you. Time to walk in our purpose. Are you ready?! I am. Let's get to it.
ON ANOTHER NOTE.....
Do you ever feel uncomfortable around certain people and doing certain things???
Let me tell you all about it. So last month I went to Miami with 5 of my "friends" (I really need to start meeting new people that are on my level. That is one reason why I'm still hanging on to the friends I have now, But God put on my heart I need to let them go. It's hard yall). Anyway Miami is where women are half naked and men are lusting after every and anything that walks. The first day I put on something conservative, they looked at me like I was crazy. They was calling me grandma. So guess what I did? I changed my outfit to something tight showing off my figure and assets. Guys was hitting on me and pulling me to dance when I was dressed like that but when I had on something less revealing they just ignored me. I'm glad they didn't want to talk to me. I want a guy to look at my mind instead of the revealing clothes I wear. While wearing my two piece swimming suit i felt uncomfortable. I love my body, but I dont want to go around showing every man my body!!!
Can I BE HONEST YALL???
The Devil tempted me during this trip. (As some of you know I have not had sex in over two years or any male attention) This guy was my type, talking the right things. I was almost close to having sex with him (no I did not take off my clothes or anything, but I was almost there) but something (Devil) was telling me to take it further. I had to stop. I don't think I really enjoyed this trip. If I went to Miami with my parents (Yes I love traveling with my parents. They are fun and we have a good time) it would have been different and I would have enjoyed myself.
Do I think I will go on another trip with them? Probably not. Our friendship got lost when I found myself. It's not like I'm better than anyone cause I'm not. It's that I carry myself different and going on vacation wearing little to none clothing is not me. I hate to be judged when I'm with them. It's like I have to dress a certain way.
XOXOXO
VIRTUOUS GODLY WOMAN